I'm awesome, apparently.

So, all the letters of recommendation are in for my U of Illinois application. I "waived" my right to them, but my supervisors all shared them with me, anyway.

I tend to only see my weaknesses, and fear when the facade might fall apart. I'm not that awesome, really. God knows that, but maybe I've done a good job of hiding that from most everybody else.

But their letters give me hope too. Hope that in spite of how right now I don't feel that accomplished, I have left a positive mark somewhere.